For You.

You were asking me when will I ever blog about you. So i guess, this is the time. Here it goes...

From the moment I saw your ass stickin out that Picture, I know, you will be my next girlfriend. I'll borrow Dorothy's line from the movie Jerry Maguire, "you had me at hello." But you, "You had me at your ass.."

I asked my friend to introduce me to you personally. But no, we met online. We chatted every morning. We talked anything. everything. It was nice because you were open minded. From the clean stuff to the dirty stuff, you dont care. I love that.

We had our first date at Greenbelt. Nilibre mo ko ng Ice Cream. We talked. At first, i was really intimidated. You speak english fluently, i do not. I was like "whoa, yah, really?, yes" That's kinda embarassing but its cool. Hinatid kita sa may Kingswood dahil dun ka sasakay papunta sa house nyo. It was sweet because we walked From Greenbelt to Kingswood.

We had our second date at Trinoma. You were wearing that cute gladiator sandals and a skirt. We watched movie. We're suppose to eat kwekwek and siomai that time but it was really late na. Again, we walked from the Post Office to Kingswood. It was sweet.

We went to MOA for our third date. We had plans that day. We're going ice skating. I really dont like it but you know, that time im beginning to like you na. Thank God when we saw the rates, it was expensive. I was saved. We ate at Mong Kok Dimsum. You ate some kind of dimsum looking alien egg. You gave me one, I ate it. but i didnt like it. Still sweet.

We talked and chatted stuffs. We never lost communication with each other. months passed then one day, I told you i love you. I remember that day that you told me when you received that text, you tripped. You were shocked. You invited me at Booze Stop. You introduced me to your friends. I was holding your chin. you were holding my hand. and there, i said those magic words.. "are we?" and you said "yes." That was the happiest day of my life. I kissed you. and you kissed me back. in the street.

We were happy. We were inlove. and i believe we were the cutest couple ever. You gave me a nickname. I gave you one too. I was Ruffie, and you were my Frufru. I introduced you to My Mom. She liked you very much. You were understanding, smart, and funny. I met your brother. He was this fatass turned buff guy now. We never missed watching new movies. You introduced me to fine dining. You cooked me good food. You made me happy. You made me smile. We lived the life of The Life that were suppose to have in the near future. We had a baby. A baby dog. Although he's a troublemaker, We still loved him.

Then, now, You changed. you are not the same Girl i met at Greenbelt that night.

I was there when you were depressed. I comforted you. I told you that everything's gonna be alright. I never left by your side. I gave you me. everything me. I woke you up every morning for work so that you will not be late. I waited for you till you get home. I am always at your side, All the time.

Now that im depressed, where are you? I understand that you are enjoying with your career. You love your job. I know. All im asking is for you to give me an itsy bitsy of your time. That is what i always tell you. That is what we are always arguing about. I just want a LITTLE BIT of your time. I just want you to inform me that you are here, or there. Just a text to know that you are still breathing. Its not asking a lot. But no. You didnt give me that. I have the right to worry if i dont feel your presence because I am your boyfriend and i love you so much. Its not that im "baby-ing" you like what you told me and i know you can carry yourself but still, I am your boyfriend.

and now here come the Parents. They were so pissed off at me because i look like an addict according to your dad. But i think its not that. They dont like me because im jobless. They dont like me because im not smart like their daughter. They dont like me because you dont have a future with me. And now i wonder, Did they ever think that we are still young for that shit? No. I am not dumb. Im not stupid. I know that you have a career and i dont want to ruin that.

I told you to not let your father's words affect you. That just forget what he's saying. I also told you that we can keep our relationship discreet so that he'll leave you na pero no. Wala. You let him win. And now look what happened to us. We are a mess. And i guess, you are fed up with our situation anymore that's why you left me. Im sorry if i dont have a job. And im sorry, if you dont have a future with me.

I was planinng for what im going to give you for our anniversary since October. So i guess im not gonna be doing that anymore. I was really excited about that. I told my friends and my niece.

Im gonna stop "yapping" na. This ends my blog. This is what your requesting me. and now i've done it, again. For you. I love you so much. But i guess your love for me just faded away. its gone with the wind. I dont want to lose you pero you are gone already.

I am happy that you became part of my life. I wasnt expecting it because I do not fit in your standards. I am not buff, rich, handsome like your other boyfriends. I dont speak english well, and i am very small. I am also happy that you accepted me for what i am. Im not those kind of boys who give flowers to their women. Give chocolates and stuffs. Because i cannot afford it. and im not like them because i find it very plastic and show off. All i can give you, is a Mogu Mogu from 7-11, and a Takoyaki from Ton Ton Tei.

You told me that we have to fix our lives first before we get back again. But how am i going to fix mine if its you? I dont care if im fat, i dont care if my mom wont stop shouting at me for not having a job. I care about you. You are the only one who can fix it. Because you are my life.

Its December 5, 2009. The Happiest and Saddest day of My Life.

*For those grammar police people who are reading this, im sorry if some of my sentences are not correct. Im not as good as you people when it comes to english.